this year

we saw Bob Dylan and i saw Sigur Rós live

we traveled to Washington D.C. and Sedona

sold our condo in Carson 

moved in with my mom

lived out of boxes for over half the year

we finally found a home we will be moving into soon (more on that later).

 

i started working at anthropologie again

founded a fantastic book club

read over 20 books this year alone

wrote my first ten minute play

began writing my first full length play

wrote my first two short stories

acted in a wonderful play alongside a few favorites

saw amazing performances and worked with talented people

and i took up jogging which has taught me to breathe, to look up, and to notice. it has inspired much of my writing.

i spent the entire year in a recovery program (i don't think i've mention this here) 

met amazing people

learned more about myself in the last year than in the last 29 years

forgiven and been forgiven

am learning to accept what sometimes feels unacceptable and intolerable

loved more and let myself receive more love

i've learned how to let go and how to surrender.

and i've watched David grow even more into a man

observing his patience and feeling his support in the pain and the joy of my own growth.

for both of us, i think, this year has just felt like a year for growth and change

we are reaching and climbing toward bigger things

but trying to love the little moments that sometimes get lost in between.

here's to a new year, whatever it may bring.

"It was late afternoon 

and the sun had just begun to cast golden flickers of bright light across the tops of the shop windows 

and buildings on the busy street, 

and a faintly icy breeze swirled the dust and dead leaves near his feet in a lazy tornado."

- excerpt from my short story, The Chase