Monday, July 25, 2011

Dub Dub Weigh In

{Week Twelve}


- 0.2 lbs
Change since week one: - 4 lbs
Change since 2006: - 34 lbs

So here's the deal with my weigh in this week... it's kinda funny. So I was in a hurry because I had to be at church earlier than normal, so I couldn't stay for the meeting, but I was running late so I had to get in and get out. I was 20 minutes late to the weigh in/meeting so I went right in and stepped on the scale. The lady behind the counter said, "Okay you're up point four this week." and I let out a super exasperated sigh of annoyance because though I had a lot of eating out events to go to this week, I knew I didn't go over my extra weekly points allowance and thought that my body is doing that thing where it just refuses to lose weight. So I left WW and got in the car. I realized that I had a little bit of time and that I also had to pee so I went back in and asked if I could use the restroom and weigh in again (I've never done that before!). The lady at the counter said that I definitely could, although she couldn't change the weight she already entered in the system. Honestly I don't care about that, just as long as I know what my true weight is.

So I came back from the bathroom and stepped on the scale. That little bit of water I hadn't released weighed 0.6 lbs!! That's a lot. So in reality I lost 0.2 lbs this week. I know it's not much, but I would much rather have a small loss than a gain so I'm trying to be proud of the small victories.

This past week I went to my mom's fancy and delicious birthday dinner, went to a cooking class where we had a tasty meal, and went to a beach bonfire and had three s'mores, so losing anything at all is a bit of a victory.

I also noticed this on my online WW profile and thought I'd share it. 

Those are all milestones that I have reached on the program that I need to be proud of and need to use as an encouragement and a reminder that I've come a long way. Plus, this isn't even from the 70 lbs I lost in high school, this is from when I started WW in college! I've worked hard to lose weight on several occasions and though I sometimes fail, I've succeeded so much and I need to give myself more credit. I'm always really hard on myself about EVERYTHING, but especially, especially, especially about my weight. I need to pat myself on the back a little more because it gets really exhausting to constantly be looking at what I'm not accomplishing rather than what I already have and what I know I will.

So I may not be super stoked about this week's results, but I'm not upset. I'm content, which is all I really need to be.

I won't be able to go to WW next week (and possibly not the next week) because I will be out of town and I will be faced with a lot of food challenges while I'm there. My biggest fear is that I will make the same mistakes I made while on my recent trip a couple of weeks ago, gain another 5 lbs back and get back up to 160 by the time I'm home. I'm definitely not going to be expecting that and I will be trying my best to make wise decisions while I'm gone, but for me, food while traveling is a huge battle. It really is my most intense, make-it-or-break-it weight loss battle. It stresses me out, which then feeds into the vicious cycle of eating because I'm stressed/depressed and stressed/depressed because I'm eating. UGH, I have problems. Wish me luck, you guys. I'm gonna need it.

9 comments:

Kacie said...

i'm totally proud of you!
one thing in my meetings that my leader said when i told her that even though i'd hit a weight loss mile stone, i said i COULD have lost more.. and she stopped me and said..
"Never qualify your weight loss. Accept it and revel in it."

any loss is a good loss and you've earned it Andrea!
on saturday when i went to my meeting.. i cried happy tears. this really is a journey and a battle of wills.
i'm so so so proud and happy for you. i'll be praying for you in NY!

something else that i heard from someone who knows my issues with food and weight was...
"YOU are NOT your body. YOU are so much more."

amen to that!

Unknown said...

awwww, thanks so much for the encouragement and the wonderful words of wisdom, and especially the prayers while i'm gone!

it really means a lot to me, friend! <3

Anonymous said...

You are beautiful!
Totally, in and out!
Divine!
Go girl...and you CAN do this!
I'm joining the gym today...I CAN do this too!
xxx

Unknown said...

thanks girl! i needed that.
and i believe you can, too!!

Megane said...

i think you will do great! Whether you're up, down, or the same when you return, you've done an amazing job. i love reading about your journey. you are very inspiring. Cheers to you cyber friend! Praying for you.

Unknown said...

Megane, that is incredibly sweet and kind and thoughtful. Thank you so much. Your encouragement means so much!! <3

Kristi P said...

Andrea, you are lovely. I am so amazed by your perseverance. You can do it!!!

grey rose (they/them) said...

way to go! you're such a champ!
also, you are super cute:)

Unknown said...

@kristi, thank you so much! that truly means a great deal, friend <3

@hannah, awwwww thanks!! you are awesome <3